Home cooked food!

Is the best yo!!

Yum yum!

How to lose 1 pound a week that I'm here la??

It's nice to sleep in my own bed although it's sunken and shit from all my weight HAHAH. But it's still my own.

Yesterday at 8am, I waited in front of Coles just like those ppl who queue in front of Myers for Boxing Day sales. Once it opens, I rushed in and grabbed 2 bags. Took countless hands of cherries and ended up with 3.4kg of cherries.

Quickly walked back home and finished packing.

Actually, I do not need to rush at all. Becoz I reached the airport at 9am and I waited 3 hours for fuck mehhh.

So sick of flying right now. And then in Perth right....my luggages almost didn't make it into the plane back to Brunei. I was waiitng at the departure hall when RBA plane flew in. The passengers disembarked and new luggages went in. I watched EVERY one going in and I don't seem to seen mine.

I purposely used a bright purple and green bag so that it'll be easy to spot and also becoz it'll minimise the chances of anyone mistakenly taking my bags. Coz you know they are so hideous that ppl are ashamed to admit those are their bags.

My biggest fear abt flying is not the plane crashing. It's losing my luggage. DAMN!

I quickly informed the ladt at the counter and after checking, she told me Virgin Blue has not transferred my luggages yet. YET? U fucking kidding me? The plane leaves in like 15 minutes and my belongings are not here!!

Arghhhhh!!!

I waited another 5 minutes looking at the people working around tranferring stuff into the planes. Then the lady said if my stuff is still not here soon, then I'll have to wait for them in the next flight into Brunei.

:((((((

However, just as I was about to board the plane and 0 mins before it was due to depart, a man told me my luggages have arrived and they are putting them in the cargo now. He showed a man walking towards the plane with my PURPLE AND GREEN bags!!

I was sooooo motherfucking relieved when I saw that. Phew!!

You see!!! FML.

Lucky I smart ah. Know how to keep a watch out for my things wtf. Yes...very smart *hmph*

If not, how? Reached Brunei already and wait until morning at the baggage claim ah!

Ok..I ahve to go to my new house now! Laters!

I'm DONE!!

Finished!

Wan le..!

Habis!

What else? I only know these 3.

FML. Today was supposed to be very quiet at Frasers and everything should be easy breezy. However, the chef overslept WTF! Thus, I had to prepare all the stuff that the chef should be doing. Ya Allah!!

He only arrived at about 8am ++. But guests only started coming at about 8am so it was still ok.

Why do these things always happen to me??

And then la..Xmas night in Westin is also super busy! It's ok la..that is why they pay us 50 bucks an hour.

So I am done! My final shift! It has definitely been a good experience and I wouldn't trade all the awesome people I met for all the money in the world(if a lot, then i might consider wtf).

It's time for me to take a long good rest and recover. I shall see them again next year :))

Now it's almost 2am but I am wide awake and trying to pack as quiet as possible so my roomie is sleeping.

But I can't fully pack until I buy that bunch of cherry that my mum wants.

I might blowdry my hair now and go to sleep. Wake up at 5.30am to curl my hair, pack my laptop and clean up my room. Go to Coles at 8am and get a taxi at 9am.

That sounds like a plan.

*****

Oh yah. I had a nap this afternoon after my morning shift. I dreamt that I was working in a really nice old-fashoined type restaurant with the people in Westin.

The place looks a bit different but in my dream, it was Sydney to me.

We were getting ready as usual and then the most wonderful thing happened!

It started to snow.

We all look in awe as tiny little snowflakes cover the ground and people along the street dancing around with joy.

Fuck man. Must be the festive spirits.

Merry Xmas to you guys!

2 days!

Laundry 1st round - done.
Confirm my flights - done.

Just checked Coles's opening times and decided that I can still manage to do my last shopping on Boxing day at 8am before leaving my apartment at 9am.

Clean washed hair is the best feeling in the world. Better than 'wet with sand and shells stuck in your hair'.

I hope both days in Mosaic will be quiet so that we can just muck around and fold napkins.
But it's a nice hotel so people might want to have Xmas dinners there you know and it'll be busy WHATTTTTTTTTTTTT.

But I can't wait to quickly go back home and try the baju-s on wittle Jeremy and that sopoh Crystal!!

It's 12pm now and I have to work at 6pm later. What to do in between?

A day at the beach.

So I uploaded these photos on Blogger and Facebook at the same time.. Multi-tasking yo.

Last minute decided to go at 10am coz 3 or 4pm is too late. And I say that was a wise move. Coz at 3 or 4pm, we were ready to go home as it was getting cold and the sun has gone into hiding.

Julian and Yash were already there at 9am. And Bonnie the event organiser didn't show up at all wtf.

We girls wanted to go at 10am but only arrived at 11am. It was still good tho. When we arrived, Eray, Apollo, Alkis and Carlos were there already.

And I wore a bikini wtf. Yes I am super fat with love handles but I guess I didn't really care that much anymore.


Sorry, I guess I never learn. Flash mode still not switched on yet.
There we go! Apollo and Yuli.
Jasmine and Sonia.
Yuli. As you can see, it is a beautiful sunny day.
Yashhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Yuli and I. My face damn oily here coz I put on sunscreen.
David and Yuli.
The guys BBQ-ing for us.
Dude-s.
Some random old man who BBQ stuff and sells them.

No comment (ugly).
No comment (fake smile).
Jasmine...
Then off we go into the water. No pics coz who the fuck bring camera into the water la. It was really bad la. My bikini was too big (yes it was the wrong size altho I am very fat but I still managed to buy a bigger bikini than my body can fill in) and everytime I get washed away by the waves, my bottom nearly came off WTF.

One time, the waves kept on coming continuously and I couldn't get up. I kept getting dragged along the bed by the waves and ended up with LOTSA sand in my bottom. It felt like I shat my pants or some thing. I put my hands in the bottom and took out half of the sand. Yes, I was 'digging for gold' in public.

Apollo is such a dumbass. I was just standing there playing with the little waves when he said 'Your boobs are fake'. =.=''

Then later on, he said 'Those are silicones in there. It's not gonna float in water'.

>.>

Right.....

After like 30 minutes of swallowing salt water, we went back and decided to just lay under the shade and chill.

See? Chillllll~~

While Eray they all were playing cricket and football.

I knwo what you are thinking. Ok I am very fat. Fuckkkkkkkkkkkkk.




















Ooooo....check out Mr Seng's abs.


After that, we went to Belgian Bar to get some food and head off to Pancakes on The Rocks to get some desserts.

Sighhh...how nice would it be if everyday is like this.

Avatarrrrrrr.

Storyline - predictable.
Pictures and effects - very 'noice' I say!
Sex scene - Awkward.

Today, I went shopping alone again. Can't believe I did not buy anything for myself at all :((

I went to Westin to get my Xmas gift which a $20 Coles voucher and bought some movie vouchers too.

Then I damn semangat take the train to Bondi Junction just to shop at Westfield. Coz that branch is bigger than Sydney Central's.

I also used the $100 gift card Loong gave me previously. And bought lotsa cute little baby clothes.

I think I'll make a really cool mum coz I have good taste in clothes. Sitayi.

I bought a super cute crimson red bubble skirt for Crystal together with 1 top and 2 more dresses. As for Jeremy, he got a pair of denim jeans with 3 tops and 2 playsuits. All for a grand total of $180. Not cheap I know. It's on sale summore.

I actually wanted to buy a couple more but mum says just to buy one or 2 items should be fine. Too late. I bought wayyy more than that.

And then since I am going to the beach party tomorrow, I decided to get a bikini wax. Urm...it's rude to have petpet mao sticking out from the sides mmmkayyy.

I was lying on the bed with legs spread open wtf then the lady said 'why don't you go for a brazilian? It's the most popular one'. I was like 'yeah..i did it once and it hurt like a bitch so nayy'.

Long story short, in the end she managed to convince me to go brazilian again wtf. WHY AM I SO EASILY CONVINCED ONE AHHHH!

Another thing, maybe becoz they have plenty of customers there and girls come in for a wax every 10 min, their price is very cheap compared to my first time. I paid $78 for a full brazilian and here it only cost $35.

Their service is quick and good too. Not like cincai yanking and all that. HAHAH!!

But I have to say, brazilian still hurts with every yank. However, it's so clean and smooth now *stroke, stroke, STOP, >.>*

WTF!

What's left to be done?

24th Dec - Do laundry in the morning, go to work at night.
25th Dec - Work morning and night. Then come back to finish packing.
26th Dec - Go home!!

OMG!! So fast! Only 3 more days till I go home!

I am going back there fo sho!

I suddenly have this urge to start everything anew.

To change my mindset.

To cut all ties with everyone I know and start making new friends.

To change my appearance and be myself without an ounce of pretence.

To not have any sort of relationship and stay that way.

To say whatever I want and stick with it.

To not feel the need to fit in.

:(

Westin Xmas 2009

So we had our Xmas party last night. I was wearing my $34.50 blue dress but decided to change to black top/black jeans last minute coz I thought everyone would be in jeans too but FML. They all had dresses on. Fail.

Took pictures...duh. And the night ended weird. Story at the end.

Pics are not in order and not complete coz I can't be arsed to upload all of them again. Everything is on Facebook.

The girls. Who took this ah! Block the flash summore.

The girls with Chef Mark.
Tung, Jasmine, Debby.
Sam, Micheal and I. Micheal works in the Lobby Bar.
Carlos, Joseph and I. Carlos looks like Mr Bean here right! LOL. But he has long lashes*shy*. Ya la ya la I do like him but not like 'supersuperduper' like. I just like him. Sigh.
Debby and I. Ohhh! Can you see my makeup? I think it is the most obvious here. Maybe my pink shadow wasn't enough but it was actually very thick already. I have never had sooo much makeup on my face ok.
Sonia, Jun Ju and I. Can you believe Jun Ju is already 30? He looks so young!
The girls.
Andrea and I. He looks like chilli padi right!
The team. That's Jackie in white dress. Everyone hates her but is scared of her too wtf.
Chef Walter Keller. He worked in Singapore for like 20 years before coming to Sydney. So he speaks a bit of Malay too.
Keeven and I. Why he look so sohai here ah. Actually I think he's quite good-looking one.
Mary, Matthew, Slav and I. Yup, that's Mary. What do you think of her?
Yuli and I.
The girls with Carlos.
Chef Kenny from Malaysia too. He is always asking us girls to go out for dinner with him but we never say yes. HAhahah! If as a big group, can la but if just the two together a bit awkward right!
Vishal, Harry and I.
Nicole and I. She is actually VERY tall but bend down to make me look taller WTF.
Us girls wit Bonnie.
One pic I took before I left for the party. Too white already. I seriously have like 1 inch of makeup on my face. And I did not even put on foundation or powder. It was just concealer, eyeshadow, mascara, blusher and lipstick. Never understood how ppl can stand it.

Anyway, here's the story. Towards the end of the night, I was talking to a chef. I really like talking to him coz he's Malaysian (not Kenny) too and it's always nice to have someone who's similar to you. But as we talked, it was almost like we were a couple or some shit.

He was leaning REALLY close to me and talking in my ear and putting his arm around my shoulder. Which is still A-OK at that time coz it was noisy and you know, ppl have been drinking and things at this stage are generally touchy feely kinda. But you usually let it slide and think that you won't see them again or they are not gonna behave like this anymore.

I mean, I went up to Sam whom hugged me and put his ear onto my boobs. Ok. Just one time coz it's Xmas- the season of giving and sharing WTF *rolls eyes*

The party wrapped at 11pm and the rest of them said they are gonna continue sumwhere which I want to join but I have no ID with me. Besides I am working tomorrow (which is today) at 7am. So? I am going home. That chef said he wants to send me home so I was like ok....he can send me home and then after that, it's gonna be all over and back to normal like before.

But he took such a long time to finish his lock-up and it was already 12am when he finally finished. We walked outside and I said 'actually, I can just wait at the bus stop like usual and you can take the train back to Ashfield'. He insisted on taking me home. We took a cab and in the cab when we were almost near my place, he kept on stroking my hand *cringe*. I didn't reciprocate but I feel so bad to fling his hand away. So I did not dare to move at all. I was like 'DAMMIT TAXI DRIVER, CAN YOU MOVE FASTER!'.

Luckily the taxi driver made a wrong turn but told me that if I walked just across another street, I'll find my apartment. Which I quickly made a dash out of there. I think the chef wanted to give me a kiss too but luckily, I siam-ed real quick.

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!! What is wrong with me! Am I that flirty to make ppl misunderstand? Or am I wrong in letting these people take it too far with me and not saying 'NO' when I'm supposed to? I like these people a lot. I mean, I LOVE them. But not that kind of love.

I know the chef is a VERY nice guy but he prolly misunderstood that I like him. :((

People have been really nice to me, giving me kisses on my hand and giving goodnight hugs and stuff but it's supposed to be normal and in a jokingly manner. Not the type of things you do in hopes that it will turn into something more.

How now!!! Eat shit arh?! Luckily there is no more banquets for another 6 weeks. Otherwise, it is gonna be awkward as hell yo.

Btw, I did not work today. Coz I received a msg from Shaaban at 6am telling me to have the day off coz it's very quiet. Yesh!

So I cleaned my room( just a bit) and packed my clothes. Right now I just need to buy a few more stuffs and clean more of my room and then I can fly home!